Tuesday, January 1

Hello New Year


I came to the computer hours ago to finish my last post for the year and start the first for 2013. Eventually I got the former out the way and after much stuffing around and what not, it appears as if I have finally started the later. Though I already know it will not be the post that I really want it to be.

When I first thought about this post, well over a week ago, I had planned for it to be one full of inspirational goodness. Something that would get both you and I off our computer chairs and living life to the fullest in 2013.

Sounds great doesn't it?

Sadly that post is not quite here yet. Mainly because I am off living life and trying to make the most out of the last day of 2012. Actually making the most is perhaps a bit of a stretch. A more accurate description is trying to cram in all the things that have spent weeks (or even months) waiting to be done.

In between all of that I am trying very hard to ignore the fact that the day after tomorrow (which is now actually tomorrow as you are reading on Tuesday and I am referring to Wednesday) will see me put Miss Eleven on a plane to go and visit her biological father. Who I would dearly love to refer to as the sperm donor but don't because that is insensitive to his feelings and I don't want to do that. Because regardless of what may or may not have happened in the past between us, he has always tried to remain involved in her life.

Not that, that actually makes sending her off to him any easier. For all the bedtime turmoil and arguing about putting the dishes away and whatever else she may do that drives me to distraction, I am going to miss her like crazy. I always do. So crazy that it actually makes me feel a little sick to even think about it.

As I type my stomach has started to churn and there is this pounding lump growing in my chest. From there it will make it's way to my throat where it will inevitably get stuck and I will feel like I am choking for the next little while. I can't believe that it has come around so quickly again. I really do hate this time of year.

Where was I?

Oh that's right, getting ready for Tuesday and IBOT while saying goodbye to 2012 and Miss Eleven. Though Miss Eleven's goodbye is only for two weeks so I should just suck it up and get on with it.

Sigh.

Of course much easier said than done.

Anyway it is Tuesday and I have blogged.

You should too, then you can join in all the fun that is #IBOT. 

Head on over to Essentially Jess for all the details and to meet the newest members of the awesome TeamIBOT

44 comments:

  1. Happy Tuesday.
    Happy New Year.

    Leanne @ Deep Fried Fruit

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    1. Thanks Leanne and right back at you. All the best for the new year lovely

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  2. I would be hard to send your girl away. Hopefully the 2 weeks will fly passed and she'll be back before you know it. Rachel xx

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    1. Yep it is not easy but at the same time there are positives so I will just focus on them.

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  3. That must be a pretty weird 2 weeks for you, not having her around. Does she look forward to this visits?

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    1. Yes she does because who wouldn't like a holiday away from little sisters where people buy you lots of cool stuff?

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  4. Happy new year. Hope those two weeks fly for you.

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  5. Happy New Year Rhi! It definitely would be hard to say goodbye for a day let alone 2 weeks!! xx I am sure she will have a lovely time and you will enjoy the break from the little discussions about who's left the towel on the floor or who hasn't done the dishes!!


    #teamIBOT was here :)

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    1. Yes I am sure after the first few days I will be enjoying the peace and quiet her absence brings.

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  6. Oh Rhianna, that sounds hard :( be a brave Mummy and I am sure the weeks will fly. Enjoy the break from the mundane, so you can then appreciate each other when she returns. Have a wonderful 2013 xxxxxx

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    1. Thanks Chantel, hope the year is great for you as well

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  7. Oh man that must be just SO HARD, I can't even imagine having to do that. I bet it won't be easy but I hope you get some 'you time'. Look forward to following you in 2013! Emily

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    1. Yes it is not easy but I am sure it won't be as bad as I imagine either. Look forward to having you along in 2013

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  8. Gosh honey, that does sound tough. I hope the two weeks pass quickly for you. Wishing you all good things for 2013 xx

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    1. Thanks lovely, hope it is a great year for you as well

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  9. Happy new year!! I hope the weeks fly by for you!! xx

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    1. Thanks, I am sure they will be gone before I know it

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  10. I hope 2013 turns out to be wonderful for you and I hope the time that Miss Eleven is away flies really fast! Happy New Year!

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    1. Thanks Kylie, hope your 2013 is great as well

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  11. Your blog just had a major freak out at me! Everything dissoed, but it's back now *phew*

    As I was saying before Blogger decided to glitch....

    I think rescheduling your New Years for two weeks sounds like a plan.

    So I won't wish you Happy New Year, But I will say HAPPY IBOT!!

    Thinking of you sweets xxx

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    1. phew indeed! Glad it sorted itself out. Maybe there was so much traffic it just couldn't cope bahahaha ever the eternal optimist I am! Thanks for dropping in with lovely words

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  12. Happy New Year!! I think it's completely normal to feel anxious when away from kids. My boys drive me insane some days and I desperately want a few hours break. But then when I get that much dreamt of break I spend the whole time worrying. Try to take care and be kind to yourself. There are some things we can't control so may as well make the most of the time off.

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    1. yes that is very true, some things we just can't control.

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  13. Hope you still get to do something you will enjoy when your daughter is with her dad. It's normal to have those feelings and you will get her back.
    Take care and happy new year.

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    1. Yes it will all work out for the best I am sure. Happy new year to you as well

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    1. Thanks Rina and happy new year to you as well

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  15. oh love. it can't ever be easy to put your baby on a plane to go away from you. hope time passes quickly and she's back with you soon. I guess the silver lining is that at least he wants to be a part of her life. Have a couple of friends with kids whose dads would rather they didn't exist. It's terrible :( Lots of love to you xo.

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    1. Yes that is right, it is lovely for her that he wants to be involved in her life and really that is all that matters.

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  16. I hope the weeks fly by for you, Happy New Year!

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    1. Thanks Lisa and happy new year to you as well

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  17. Oh Rhi, I hope the time passes quickly for you and for your daughter so she'll be back with you in no time.

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    1. Thanks Kirsty, once we get few the first few days it is much easier and you are right before I know it she will be back driving me to distraction

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  18. You did it, well done. I hope your two difficult weeks fly by. Happy new year beyond that :)

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  19. Oh, I really feel for you.
    That must be just so hard. xx

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  20. Happy New Year, I hope the two weeks fly by, and I bet she'll miss you just as much xxx

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  21. Oh it sucks doesn't it! We haven't got to that point yet thankfully but I'm really not looking forward to it.

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  22. I hope time goes faster for those two weeks. Happy New Year. X

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  23. I can't imagine how I will feel if my ex wants to have Miss 4 for longer than 2 nights. I guess at some point it will happen and I will hate it, 2 weeks without your child is so long. Happy new year to you xx Eleise

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  24. Hope the next two weeks go by quickly for you hon, cant imagine what that must be like...Happy New Year and hugs x

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  25. Oh, that is hard. My baby and toddler regularly drive me up the wall (especially the toddler), but give me several hours away from them and I start to really miss them. Hope the two weeks pass quickly and Miss Eleven has a great time with her dad.

    Visiting from IBOT.

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