Of course some days it doesn't suck to be me, but of late those days feel like they have been few and far between. To say I have been an emotional wreck for the last week would be a little of an understatement. Ok it would be a lot of an understatement but whatever, who wants to pick hairs?
For the most part I am putting it down to being that time of the month. Combined with Lovely flitting off to be flower girl at her biological father's wedding. Oh and it is mango madness season. Which is a localised issue that see's residents of the Top End go mad as they wait for the rain to come and ease the craziness that builds up in the excessive heat that is bestowed upon us at this time of year.
And just so you don't think I am making it up the temperature at 1am is around 27 degrees. That is pure ridiculousness right there I tell you. For the rest of the world 27 degrees is supposed to be a cool summers day and the perfect time to hit the beach. It is not an ideal relaxing and sleeping temperature.
Anyway, back to my point about it sucking to be me.
In between all of this pinning for my absent daughter, over heating and waiting for rain to bring relief I decided that it was the prime time to beat up on myself. In fact it was a whole lot more than just beating up on myself, it was more like declaring World War III upon my inner self.
It was bloody exhausting I tell you. Really bloody exhausting. Not to mention draining and really quite pointless. Especially since one of my inner egos was adamant in refusing to listen to the lies that other egos were insistent on spreading.
Thankfully though, as my menstruating comes to an end and my hormones return to their normal levels I am able to return to my normal cheery happy self. I am sure you can hear my household cheering from wherever you are.
The one thing that kept resonating around my empty shell of a being was this
joining in with Jess for IBOT
PS Come back on Thursday for My Happiness is Thankful Thursday.
Sounds like crazy times. Here's to looking forward.. and being gentle on yourself. And that quote above - perfect. Wise, wise words. XReplyDelete
Thanks lovely xxDelete
At least you have a forum on which to vent your mood in a way that will connect with others, where we can all learn something. If we did not have down days we would not know what happy is. Hang in there fairy wisher xReplyDelete
Exactly the way I look at it as well Sarah, thanks for dropping inDelete
I'm having my period now too.. am in quite a crazy place now too. Damn you hormones!!ReplyDelete
Great quote by the way xox
Ai @ Sakura Haruka
Yes damn you hormones indeed, hope you have returned to normal now lovelyDelete
That quote is exactly what I tell myself when I am in self beating mode - what would I say to a friend saying/doing this ? And then I try to remember the good things that I have done.ReplyDelete
I'm glad you are feeling better - take care and be happy !
Have the best week ever !
Yes it is a great quote isn't, though I kinda made it up so not sure if that really makes it a quote. Though I am sure there probably is something like that floating around in quote land anywayDelete
Rhianna I know exactly how you feel. Why do the not nice stuff have to coincide with the worst of my PMS. Seems to always happen. I really do hope your back to your normal happy self and that you've done something just for you to see how special you are xxReplyDelete
Thanks Annaleis, so nice to know that it is not just me that feels like this every now and then. So thankful when it passes I amDelete
My beautiful friend (can I call you that without sounding stalkerish) you always show so much support and positivity to everyone else you are more than allowed to have yourself a down moment and as for periods don't get me started....they are draining even without the heat you poor thing. I am sending you wine, chocolate and hugs the virtual kind xxxReplyDelete
Oh yes you most certainly can call me your beautiful friend, that made me feel all kinds of special.Delete
Love and cuddles and a little bit more love. (Oh, and some fairy wishes and butterfly kisses xxx)ReplyDelete
Oh Rhi, sorry you have been beating up on yourself, it seems though that there is so much clarity from it - love the idea that there are more than one ego! Your quote has me thinking, maybe on days when I am so so hard on myself, I need to step back a little, like I do with my boys? Might really start to make a difference on those days. Hope the rain comes soon xReplyDelete
Yes it is so important to remember to be as kind to ourselves as we are to others. And according to some super theorist, maybe Freud, maybe not but one of his friends if not him, said with have three different egos of course for the life of me know I can't remember all the details!Delete
It must be hard for you right now. I hope things get easier the rest of the week.ReplyDelete
I suffer from PMS so much, it's like I'm a different person, at least hubby knows the signs now! But feeling for you Rhi, I know you'll nut it out. Must be hard with your girl at wedding :( Hugs and I will try and be there Thursday, I do have MUCH to be thankful for this week xxxReplyDelete
It is not often it knocks me for six like it did this time round, dirty bugger! Thanks for dropping inDelete
I have only recently found out that the week before and the week during my period, my hormones go nuts. My body and mind go completely off course. Luckily we are finally seeing a pattern and determining how to go about balancing these. I wonder if you may have had something similar exacerbated by your daughter at the wedding?ReplyDelete
Glad you are able to work out a bit of a pattern to it all Becc, normally it is not as terrible as what this one was. I am an emotional person at the best of times but this past week has taken it to a whole new level!Delete
Blogger ate my comment! Rude!ReplyDelete
Especially as it was such an awesome one.
Hope things are better now. We must catch up!
So rude! Thanks for dropping byDelete
Sending positive thoughts to you Rhianna. Totally understand the feeling about PMS. I can't tolerate myself that time of the month, I feel sorry for my husband. Love the quote though, so true.ReplyDelete
Thanks Rita, all is feeling much more normal nowDelete