Monday, March 25

I must confess I am awesome, or not.

My Home Truths
Firstly before I start my confession this week there is something that I need to first admit to. Last week when I saw this week's prompt I thought I would have it in the bag. So much so that I envisaged having this post written long before now. After all I have never held back from sharing the awesomeness of me, even if it is just contained to my own lunchbox.

Since then and now however a week has passed. A week that for me was full of action and adventure. Perhaps in fact too much action and adventure, which right now has left me feeling anything but truly awesome.

As you may or may not be aware, last week saw the Digital Parents Conference for 2013 take place. This year I went out of my way to make sure I was there. I sat back and watched from a distance last year and was not going to do so again. I wanted to be a part of the action.

Or so I thought.

Turns out that spending two days surrounded by a whole heap of people that I don't know is quite overwhelming for this little country bumpkin. I have returned home with a whole range of mixed emotions and a lot of them do not equate to awesome. Which is so incredibly daft, because on more than one occasion beautiful kind hearted people went out of their way to make sure I knew how they felt towards me.

Some of the kindest words ever from Miss Cinders
There were others as well, who said things like they loved how I got them, made them feel at ease and that they felt better for having met and spent time with me. Amazing stuff I tell you. Being told that meeting you made the whole experience of the conference worthwhile really is an awesome thing to hear and I thank those that said it to me. 

Only right now it feels hard to feel awesome. Or even conceive there was a time I was even close to awesome.

Why this is I don't really know and can't really say. I guess we all get filled with self doubt at times and right now I am just overflowing with it.

What I do know though, is that this too will pass and before long I will be once again brimming with awesome and sharing forth said awesomeness. Cause, you know, I am awesome like that.

Make sure you check out more awesome confessions over at My Home Truths
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13 comments:

  1. You ARE awesome like that, you know and I do hope the awesome feelings return (by the truckload!) sooner rather than later. Be kind to yourself and remember that you've made some others (yep me included) feel so much better for having met you xx

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    1. Thank you once again for your kind words, they really do mean the world to me. Fairy wishes and butterfly kisses lovely lady

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  2. Rhianna, I came back too with mixed emotions, I had a good time but it went so fast. I realized that when I got home I was too shy to say hi to half the bloggers I wanted to meet. The mention above by Miss Cinders is so worth going to DPCON. Xxlisa

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    1. It is good to know that I am not the only one who came away with mixed emotions. I too missed out on talking to a lot of people. Even some of the ones I really wanted to meet I for some reason couldn't think of anything to say.

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  3. You are most definitely awesome. You had the courage to go to the conference even though it was overwhelming. Frankly it was overwhelming for me just reading the tweets let alone being in the same room with all those amazing bloggers, including yourself. I could only hope that oneday I could be as brave as that.

    Hugs and cakie things. xo

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    1. I hope that the day you are brave enough is the same one I am brave again for. I would love to sit and talk in person with you lovely. fwbk to you

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  4. I think we all have those non-so-awesome days Rhi, a few weeks ago I was intentionally left out of a social gathering by a 'friend' - self doubt riddled me and still does, but I have had to just write that off and realise that some people aren't so awesome at being honest. But you know what? You and I aren't some of them, honesty is what draws people to us I reckon. Lovely post and saying what you think is another reason why I reckon you're McAWESOME! Em xx

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    1. Thank you beautiful Emily for such heartwarming words. I can't believe they would leave you out. To me you seem like the life of the party. I reckon you're pretty McAWESOME as well!!

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  5. It's such a big event for a blogger, with a big build up - and so many blogging superstars in one room - no wonder you have mixed feelings! It would be easy to feel out of your depth in such company, but I'm sure you swam with the best of them!

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    1. Thanks Janet, swim might be a bit of a stretch. I didn't drown though so that is good I guess.

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  6. I felt a lot like that after attending the Oprah show. I too really struggled with this topic and had more than a few rewrites and deleted posts before the toned down one that was published this morning.

    Have a great week.

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    1. Honestly when I thought about it last week before the conference I was certain it was going to be as easy as pie. A lovely little showcase of the best of me here on the blog. Sigh.

      Hope your week is fabs as well.

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  7. I hope you are back to feeling awesome again now Rhi! I apologise for taking so long to come and visit, I have also been struggling with my awesomeness this week, with so much real life stuff happening that has left me feeling rather inadequate and overwhelmed. Hoping our collective awesomeness comes back with a vengeance soon!!!!

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Fairy wishes and butterfly kisses to you, thanks for stopping by, it really means a lot, you taking the time so say hi. I try as much as I can to write a reply but if for some chance I don't get to it please know that I always read them.