Sunday, September 25

Looking for Inspiration

The second challenge in the first round of the Flash Fiction Challenge is under way.  I really don't want to leave it to the last minute like last time.  I really need to progress past this round.  My self confidence needs it.  My dreams need it.  I am not asking to win just get chance to go a little further than the rest.

This time the genre is fantasy and the location a crime scene with the object a phone book.  Sounds easy enough doesn't it?

So why is my mind so blank?  I have the time, the solitude, everything.  Well everything except for the words.  There is a part of me thinking that if I got up and did the dishes or folded some washing then perhaps it would come to me.  Then there is this other part of me that says gee this chair is comfy.  Of course the winning voice is the one that says to hell with it all go play games.

You see the problem is that I am torn.  There are things I want to say but I am scared to.  Scared of what they might bring with them.  Once words, be it said or written are put out there they bring back things.  Sometimes good sometime not.

This year was supposed to be my year for trying something new.  The year for pushing past comfort zones, getting out of the chair and giving it (life) a go, a real go.  I started off like a bat out of hell (which just happens to be one of my favourite songs) focusing my energy on meeting new people and regularly catching up.  I was so incredibly proud of myself, I would go along to places where I did not know a single person.  I would talk to strangers, people who I had not yet met but with whom I could become friends with.

After a couple of months though I stopped going.  It was all just getting a bit much.  If started to feel like everyone had a problem bigger than mine.  Which is fine.  I don't really want to be the owner of the biggest problem.  Nor do I want to be near the person who does.  Terrible I know.  I just don't think I have much to give to anyone at the moment.

Up until I wrote my R U Ok? post the other week I thought I was just fine and dandy.  Now I am not so sure.  

Anyways...will unpack all of that later.  All in good time.  I don't quite have the energy to deal with it yet. Dad's anniversary is fast approaching, about two weeks now I think.  That could be a good turning point. Since my lovely iTunes just started playing one of the songs from his funeral I will take that all as a sign of some sort.

Back to trying new things.

On the post before this I tried something new and embedded a YouTube clip into my post.  Two actually. Go me.  Before you know it I will be doing something crazy like a vlog post.  Though I probably won't.

I am also going to try something new in that I am going to schedule my Monday Mention post right now.  Actually this post you are now reading is also a scheduled post.  Since I am on a bit of a roll at the moment will spread the actual publishing out a bit to keep you all on your toes.

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Meanwhile I have a story to write...